Story Description: Kit Castille didn't want to be one of the girls who worshiped Matthew Rondillo in college. She doesn't want to be one of the girls in his little black book now. But she gave her heart to Matthew all those years ago. Driven by revenge, she's on a mission to get it back.

Four years after college, they meet again. But what if you find out that the guy who once broke your heart isn't the same anymore? Today, when it's finally you who have all the power - all the shards that can cut him - you still make the same mistakes over and over again.

Status:  100% Completed. Available for online orders. Read 80% of the full manuscript online.



Character Profiles

Age: Early 20s
Nationality: Filipino
Occupation: Graphic Designer; Reluctant Writer
Distinguishing Feature: Resting Bitch Face
Style: Boots, Biker Jackets, Black Jeans (just less angry, less cynical)
Greatest Flaw: Hopeful and hopeless; Takes for granted the people who love her.
Best Quality: Romantic to a fault

Age: Mid 20s
Nationality: Filipino
Occupation: Writer/Magazine EIC
Distinguishing Feature: Pained writer look
Style: Casual
Greatest Flaw: Pessimistic
Best Quality: Commanding presence
Backstory: His playboy reputation in college left a huge scar in his life. Proposed to his long-time college girlfriend and got dumped on the spot. He has this great need to be understood, to be desired, and to be loved.

Age: Early 20s
Nationality: Filipino
Occupation: Chef, Businessman
Distinguishing Feature: Long, curly hair
Style: California Casual
Greatest Flaw: High expectations from people
Best Quality: Fiercely Loyal, Romantic
Backstory: To be revealed.





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Kath C. Eustaquio-Derla is a journalism graduate from the University of Santo Tomas in Manila, Philippines. She wrote Bedroom Blog by Veronica, a relationship blog for Cosmopolitan Philippines from 2009 to 2011, which covers most of her single dating life. In 2015, she published her first book Before I Do. She’s passionate about coffee, red wine, books and Mad Men. She stopped collecting hearts when she got married in 2013 and went back to collecting Archie Comics ever since. Send the author a tweet @kceustaquio.

Edits: Jacquie Bamba S. Zamora

What Am I To You is the prequel to Before I Do by Kath C. Eustaquio-Derla. Before I Do is available at National Bookstore and Fully Booked.

What Am I To You

Philippine Copyright©2016 by Katherine C. Eustaquio-Derla

Disclaimer: This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents are products of the author’s imagination and are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, places or persons, living or dead is entirely coincidental. Credits are given to the respective owners of the Instagram photos. Other images were taken from

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