Post from June 6, 2013
Many writers would agree that the best "quotable quotes" are from everyday, random conversations with friends and strangers. Sometimes, it feels so liberating and "safe" to confide in a stranger who doesn't know anything about your past, your present, and your future. There's no judgment. No pity. No what ifs. No unsolicited advice. Nothing whatsoever. There are only a pair of eyes willing to look and ears willing to listen for a short while.
Before I got engaged, there was a time in my life that I felt lost, confused, and terrified of getting closer and closer to a phase in life that I've always thought I really don't want: married life.
It's not that I don't want to live happily ever after. I was, after all, in a long term relationship before I got engaged and eventually married. I just feared/fear the mounting sense of responsibility that comes with marriage. There was even a time in my life that I didn't want to share my bed with anyone for 3 nights in a row. I want it all for myself. It's not that I don't want to get married. I just thought that I could stretch the happily ever after as a legally single woman for as long as I can before I wake up, smell the coffee, and face responsible adulthood.
There's also the mental torture of having to figure out if "this" is it. I would have to explain my own concept of "The One" in another blog entry. But you know, from time to time, you can't help but really ask yourself, is "this" it? What else could be out there? What if there's someone out there who's a better match for you? What if you'll meet him tomorrow?
I asked myself these questions months before I got The Ring. I met someone. And he made me question almost everything I was so sure of months before I got engaged. The clincher? It all started out as a dare.
I asked Big if I could write about this. I want to blog about it. Not that I really need his blessing but I just want to run things by him, especially now that we're married. After much consideration, he said yes. I guess he knew that this is what I do best. I excel in this and I need to hone my craft. So here goes.
There comes a time in a girl's life that you just have to do what you have to do before you say "I do." And yes, I "Will".
When this blog is finished, go back to this introduction.
Comment if you understood the parting pun.
Veronica / Kath